Palmer writes that we are trained to “think the world apart,” dissecting it into either-ors, but we need to learn to “think the world together,” embracing opposites and appreciating paradoxes.
The principle of paradox can guide us in thinking about classroom dynamics—and in designing a teaching and learning space that can hold the community of truth.

In what ways have you experienced “suffering” as a student teacher?

The way that I have experienced “suffering “ as a student teacher is when the students are so disrespectful with us  because they think that we can’t teach them anything. Also sometimes I don’t have time to prepare classes because I am so busy with the subjects in my major and the students get bored and I feel frustrated in those moments. Another complication that I have in classes is when the students don’t pay attention and they are working in other subjects because English doesn’t care them or simply don’t like the students teacher that is front of the classroom. It’s very frustrating because we have been studying so much, but students just judge us even if we put a lot effort they don’t care.

Has your suffering had any redemptive quality to it; that is, has it made you heart larger?

I have learnt that teaching is the major that I choose and no matter what or how much I had suffer I don’t want that my students suffer and my gold as teacher is that I want to be nice with them and teach them everything that I know. I know that sometimes I am going to find some bad students but doesn’t matter I would not want to become in an evil teacher.

 What would help you deepen the redemptive quality of the suffering your experience in your work?

I believe that would help me to deep the redemptive of my suffering in my work in many ways because I am not going to be surprise when those similar situations come to my life again. Also if I have through for  any kind of suffering and I succeed I know it that I will do it again in the future.

Name some of your key gifts or strengths as a teacher:

·         Friendly

·         Responsible

·         Creative

·         Punctual

·         Respectful

·         

 Now name a struggle or difficulty you commonly have in teaching.

  Nervous

  Shy

  Insecure

How do you understand the relation between your profile of giftedness and the kind of trouble you typically get into in the classroom?

I understand that my gifts can help me to overcome some problems that could appear in the classroom because I could take advantage of them, because the problems appear by the incompetence that I have and I have to do something to change that and be capable to be a good teacher.

 
Describe a moment in teaching when things went so well you knew you were “born to teach” and compare it to a moment in which things went so poorly you wished you had never been born! Name the gifts that made this good moment possible—not the techniques you used or the moves you made, but your qualities.
 

I have Had a lot of good moments while I am teaching, but  the best moments that I could remember are when the students understand the topic and I see that their face lit up and I feel that I born to teach because when I see their happiness I feel happy, too.

I have had some classes that I feel so frustrated because the students don’t understand and I try to explained the topic and they don’t understand anyways and I feel so angry with myself and then I think that I have to teach for so many years and I feel so depressed and sad and in those moments I think that I should have chosen other major.

Palmer discusses six paradoxes of pedagogical design (pp.73-83). Choose one to focus on.  Share examples of teaching environments you have experienced where this paradox is honored. 

Have you ever been in a classroom where only half of the paradox was honored while the other half was ignored? Describe what that classroom was like.

3. the space should invite the voice of the individual and the voice of the group: I choose this paradox because It is really going on in my practice.

 I have been in a classroom where the paradox was honored while the other part was ignored. In my teaching practicum I had lot students and the arranged of the desks only benefits the students that are in front of the class and the others almost didn’t heard anything.

The classroom is big but the arrange of the desk is in rows between the rows are space but while I am explaining is too difficult to move me from the front of the class until the last students, so those students I don’t give them the attention that they deserve.

 How can I get up in the morning?

I sometimes got up tired because I have a lot of work and I always thinking in everything that I have to accomplish; Even though, I try to be happy and do the things in the best way possible.

 How can I become a good teacher?

I can become a good teacher if I research and study the information in order to have a good idea and have the enough knowledge to transmit it to others.

 Are the questions you are now living the ones you want to live?

Yes they are because they are the center of being a good teacher and a good form to remember why I become a teacher.

How might you hold these questions at the center of your attention?

Asking me everyday these questions and giving them answers in order not forget what I want to reach every day.

What are some of your fears in the classroom?

Some of my fears in the classroom are that i am not going to be a good teacher and i will disapoint my students or i am not going to be able to teach them the enough knowledge in order the give up all the obstacules in the subject. Also i afraid to become a lazy teacher who does not preper classes and just arrive to the classroom and invent at the moment, but my worst fear is that if i so stress that i could not be able to show affection to my students and advice them whenis necesary. with that i am no saying that i am goint to wait that my students approve the way a teach i am jus trying to say that i would like to take care of my students and be the nicest person possible.

How have you deal with them?

I will try deal with my fears remembering why i decided become a teacher and trying to learn something new in every chance that i have. I think that i will smart enough to overcome all the challengues and i know that there will be a lot, but if i work with enthusiasm and I love what I do. I will find a good way to learn from my mistakes.

What have you learned about yourself and about fear as a result?

I have learnt that i could overcome my fears because when i started studing in the university i was so afraid because i though that i could not do it, but i started studying and doing my best and now i am finishing my major, so i know that i can get what i want if i worked hard.

Palmer writes, “Good teaching is an act of hospitality toward the young, and hospitality is always an act that benefits the host even more than the guest”. In what specific ways do you think a teacher has to be hospitable to students?

I think that hospitality always has to exist in a classroom enviroment because the gold of a teacher should be transmit the nkowledge to their students, but it has to be in a gentle way because is this the profession that we choose. Besides talking about hospitality, teachers have to be comprehensive because each students is a world and if we pay special attention to their behavior we could nkow them un an effective way and later the benefits of that will be a lot.

I like Plamer´s phrase because it gave me an interesent point of view on how we should behave as teachers in order to become professionals.

In what ways do they treat them us unwelcome guests?

When teachers think that they know everything and students dont nkow anything and they behave like militaries giving orders and demanding that students have to achieve all the information from the first word antil the last one. Also this kind of teachers dont relationate with their students because they think its inappropiate and it doesnt worthfull.

How do teachers benefit from practicing hospitality toward students?

Teachers benefit from practicing hospitality toward students because students are more consious about the knowledge that they want to acquire and they also behave depending the treat that they recive.

Evelyn fox Keller says of Nobel Prize-winner Barbara McClintock that her knowing come from”the highest from of love, love that allows for intamacy without the innihilation of difference”.Does this kind of love have place in education?

I think that this kind of love does not have place in education because nowadays teachers are worry for a lot things but they are not worry about their students and least of their feelings. Also teachers are afraid to love their students i dont know why and if they do it they does not pay attention to that. There can be a lot of reason for this kind of behaviour because if teachers show them a little affection they are always worried about what is going to say other people or how is going reac the student because they are not used to that. 

In the other hand i think that we can show love to our students with little things in order to motivate them and make them feel confortable.

How might it make a difference if we could teach students to love the world in this way?

I think students will have more confidence and they will have a happy life because if as teachers show them that its alright to stimate and love other people and also to love where they live they are going to believe that they can be happy and they dont have be worry for so many problems that our sociaty have for the selfishness of some people that only want to cause damage to others instead of well.

Why do I want to become a teacher?

 I want to become a teacher because I like to help students to learn something new, I also like to socialize with the students; besides, I feel really proud when my students succeed in their lives and they become good people.

My intrinsic motivation is that I want to have a good job to help my family, but I am not studying only for that reason I like to teach and I like to prove myself that I can overcome my weaknesses and I am going to keep  learning new things because when learning English there are always new words, topics and history to learn.

What do I stand for as a student teacher? 

I stand that I am a student  teacher because I am learning to teach and I get feedback from my tutors and I try to improve the things that I do wrong, also I am discovering my own style of teaching and I learnt from my classmates and my teacher because I observe them even thought I am still studying, I am putting into practice all that I have learnt.

 What do I want my legacy as a teacher to be?

I want that my students remember me not only just a good teacher but also a good model because I believe that teachers guide the students and help them to take good decisions in life. Also teach good values in order to motivate them to work on building a good future.

What can I do to keep track of myself, to “remember” my own heart?

 I think that I can keep track of myself if  I don’t  forget that students are human beings and they have feelings and emotions and I  will try to know each student not only in the academic area but also what they think about other things because in that way I going to know them in a better way because I want that they feel comfortable in learning.

I could remember my own heart If I keep in mind why I want to become a teacher and the first feelings that I had when I started teaching.

When did you first realize that you wanted to be a teacher?

I realized  that I wanted to be a teacher when  I was in high school because I took an intensive course of English and I discover that I liked English, but at that time I did not know that I liked to teach, but then I have the opportunity to teach in an academy and I discovered  that I can be a very good teacher, so I decided to study this major in the university and to learn more about how to be a good teacher.

What were the circumstances of this realization?

The circumstances were very simple I had the opportunity to get involved in teaching and I found out that I like it and I could develop and perform the role of a teacher.

How close are you to those feelings today?

I sometimes feel a little disappointed because I have looked that now days teachers don’t care about  students and they just do their work but they don’t like to do it or they don’t care them, but then I remember that I want to change that and I will have the opportunity to do it with every group of students that I teach.